In the morning I was ok... Had so much to do today that couldn't really think about food! Which is good! Not good... Great! Today, I also realized that I need to drink more cups of tea, and lots of water... it keeps your stomach under the false pretense of fullness!
So, one cup of tea later I was on my way to the gym. After my routine: a banana. Then run errands, and also fight bureaucracy around town! Fucking Spanish bureaucrats! Although, and thanks to them, my mind was busy somewhere else... besides the fridge!
Lesson number 1: Empty your fridge of all possible distractions from your planned food schedule!
The hungry worm that lives inside my stomach, started crawling after I settled at home, right around noon! I didn't feel like cutting little pieces of veggies to make myself a salad! I thought “that” could wait for another couple of hours, and give me time to finish watching the movie I have to return at 5 pm... Thus, I indulged myself into a whole wheat toast with a slice of 0% fat cheese... It tasted like cardboard... But I ate it thinking it was a delicious baguette, topped with a generous wedge of “Manchego”! Swallowed the whole thing with another cup of tea.
Lesson number 2: Take your time. Eat slowly, even if you are starving to death!
The only thing that seems to be getting plenty around here are mosquitoes! Just killed one filled with blood from my back, arms, and legs! Fat bastard!
Lesson number 3: Use your imagination! Bring to your mind the flavors of the past, while tasting the horrors of your present!
The rest of the afternoon went really fast! I had to run more errands, and keep the bureaucrats at bay! Then, an unexpected visit... my landlord! I hadn't heard from him since my phone was stolen last January, along with my bag and money! Therefore, all my contacts! Couldn't call him myself... but I had, for a long time, been planning to pay him a visit, and bring to him the bottle of Rum I bought him on my last trip to the Caribbean. Now I'm glad I didn't, cause he moved his office to Barcelona, and would have wasted my time!
Lesson number 4: Never let too much time pass between cups of tea, water, or a snack... you'll end up eating the first thing that crosses your path!
Now I was late to return the movie! I had to run out the door to get to the video store before closing time, or else! On my way back... Ah! On my way back... I had to stop at my friend's, on the bakery! to get my internet connection. My friend and I share the internet connection to cut on expenses. But she was busy tending to customers, and I had to wait inside the bakery!!!!!! A croissant called my name: “Nina, Nina, Nina” And I failed miserably! Now I hate myself for it. But what is done, can't be undone. I'd better think of it as a little pebble in my shoe, and not give it too much thought. Otherwise, I will go nuts with self-flagellation!
Lesson number 5: It is not a crime, nor a sin, to indulge yourself once in a blue moon!
I am now ready to sip my last cup of tea before saying goodnight and good luck! Tomorrow it will be a whole new day, and just like in AA... I will deal with it “one day at a time”.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Day One
Today the countdown started! I have 62 days to loose 44 lbs. Not an easy task when you take into consideration the fact that I live in Spain.
Spain, famous for its Flamenco dance, bullfights, its art, architecture, and festivals of all sorts, but specially... for its food!
I live in a little coastal town along the Costa Brava where seafood is made available freshly every day. But that's not all! You also have available the extremely tasty sausages with a thousand different names and flavors. The cheeses! OMG! The cheeses! The fruits of the season, not so much of a problem, though. But then you also have "tapas". those little flavorful morsels of heaven! And what about the wines! The list is preposterous! Too many to taste in a lifetime, and never repeat the same. Much as the restaurants in NYC! You could live there (I did) and go to a different restaurant every day for a year, and never repeat the same, not even once!
Well, here it is the same with food.
I moved to Spain two years to the date, and gained 44 lbs. since! Now, and for something more than just aesthetics, I have to shred those 44 lbs. and not even that... I have to do it in 62 days!
Today is day zero for me. I know that I have to remain focus and on track, or I could easily loose my north. I just have to go through a bunch of food shops on my way to... Everywhere! And it is not easy to look the other way when I hear baked, fried, or cooked goods calling my name!
Food is my road to perdition! And if that is true... Spain is Hell!
Although, so far so good! But what the fuck! I've just started. Now it is gonna get interesting... saying no to food when I am invited to dinner parties, or when I have guests at home... That it is gonna be really, really interesting. And what about booze? Well, I haven't got there yet! I wont get there until July 11, when one of my best friends comes into town to go party... Will I be able to say no to that? Knowing, as I know, how much I like to drink and party????
Breakfast went well though. Just some tea, with a touch of soy milk, and sweetener. Lunch was a little more difficult. You see, I am really not into cooking. My idea of a meal alone, consist more on something ready to go, or something I can just nuke in the microwave! That means I have to cook my own meals if I wanna reach my goal. So, today it was tuna salad for lunch! I even hate to prepare a salad. I enjoy them, yes! But having to cut every single ingredient in little pieces, and one by one... it really gets to my nerves! On top of that I can't use any salt, nor olive oil to give it a zest. I have to constrict myself to vinegar and maybe, a dash of herbs!
So, my salad was simple: lettuce, half a tomato, a can of tuna in water, 4 olives, 4 cornichons, and onion. Thank heaven I don't have anyone to kiss! lol But cutting all these in little pieces... OMG! And to think I still have to do it for another 62 days! Murder!!!! I am somewhat of a vegetarian, my main source of protein comes from the sea, but since my cholesterol jumpstarted when I gained so much weight, it is now, totally out of the question!
In the mid-afternoon I had another cup of tea, the same as this morning, but with one diet cookie! And dinner it's been skipped altogether!
As I am writing this, I am already getting hungry! But I am trying to concentrate on the results... which I don't know when are gonna start to show!
I also embarked myself into an intensive exercise program. Started in the gym this morning, just after my cup of tea. Did one hour of cardio, 45 minutes on the aqua gym class, and 10 laps on the swimming pool. A banana afterwards, to recover the potasium left in the towel! Gosh, it has only been one day, and I am already feeling the pressure! My stomach is crawling like a moribund insect, and I think I will need all the advise and support I can get to see it through!
So, if there is anyone outhere with some diet, loosing weight wisdom... please! Feel free to send me your recommendations. Heavens know I need them!
Spain, famous for its Flamenco dance, bullfights, its art, architecture, and festivals of all sorts, but specially... for its food!
I live in a little coastal town along the Costa Brava where seafood is made available freshly every day. But that's not all! You also have available the extremely tasty sausages with a thousand different names and flavors. The cheeses! OMG! The cheeses! The fruits of the season, not so much of a problem, though. But then you also have "tapas". those little flavorful morsels of heaven! And what about the wines! The list is preposterous! Too many to taste in a lifetime, and never repeat the same. Much as the restaurants in NYC! You could live there (I did) and go to a different restaurant every day for a year, and never repeat the same, not even once!
Well, here it is the same with food.
I moved to Spain two years to the date, and gained 44 lbs. since! Now, and for something more than just aesthetics, I have to shred those 44 lbs. and not even that... I have to do it in 62 days!
Today is day zero for me. I know that I have to remain focus and on track, or I could easily loose my north. I just have to go through a bunch of food shops on my way to... Everywhere! And it is not easy to look the other way when I hear baked, fried, or cooked goods calling my name!
Food is my road to perdition! And if that is true... Spain is Hell!
Although, so far so good! But what the fuck! I've just started. Now it is gonna get interesting... saying no to food when I am invited to dinner parties, or when I have guests at home... That it is gonna be really, really interesting. And what about booze? Well, I haven't got there yet! I wont get there until July 11, when one of my best friends comes into town to go party... Will I be able to say no to that? Knowing, as I know, how much I like to drink and party????
Breakfast went well though. Just some tea, with a touch of soy milk, and sweetener. Lunch was a little more difficult. You see, I am really not into cooking. My idea of a meal alone, consist more on something ready to go, or something I can just nuke in the microwave! That means I have to cook my own meals if I wanna reach my goal. So, today it was tuna salad for lunch! I even hate to prepare a salad. I enjoy them, yes! But having to cut every single ingredient in little pieces, and one by one... it really gets to my nerves! On top of that I can't use any salt, nor olive oil to give it a zest. I have to constrict myself to vinegar and maybe, a dash of herbs!
So, my salad was simple: lettuce, half a tomato, a can of tuna in water, 4 olives, 4 cornichons, and onion. Thank heaven I don't have anyone to kiss! lol But cutting all these in little pieces... OMG! And to think I still have to do it for another 62 days! Murder!!!! I am somewhat of a vegetarian, my main source of protein comes from the sea, but since my cholesterol jumpstarted when I gained so much weight, it is now, totally out of the question!
In the mid-afternoon I had another cup of tea, the same as this morning, but with one diet cookie! And dinner it's been skipped altogether!
As I am writing this, I am already getting hungry! But I am trying to concentrate on the results... which I don't know when are gonna start to show!
I also embarked myself into an intensive exercise program. Started in the gym this morning, just after my cup of tea. Did one hour of cardio, 45 minutes on the aqua gym class, and 10 laps on the swimming pool. A banana afterwards, to recover the potasium left in the towel! Gosh, it has only been one day, and I am already feeling the pressure! My stomach is crawling like a moribund insect, and I think I will need all the advise and support I can get to see it through!
So, if there is anyone outhere with some diet, loosing weight wisdom... please! Feel free to send me your recommendations. Heavens know I need them!
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